The physical parts especially. I'm not really sad all that much anymore, but physically I'm a mess. I'm so tired. Even when I've slept good. And cold.... why am I so cold?? And everything hurts. I'm confused a lot. I lose my train of thought. I read that this can go on for years. YEARS. Ugh. I took some Z-quil tonight for the first time in a while and I'm having a tiny glass of wine because that's all that was left. I feel like I could just pass out right now but I know if I go lay down, it'll be a while before I can sleep. And tomorrow it will have been 3 months. Thank god for the Calm app.
Putting my thoughts into writing